haha...I'm back!! Got alot of things to say......xp

So riiittteee. After pmr, really had nothin' to do. Absolutely nothin'. But at least I had to look forward to korean dramas, exercise and more food. God, I've never been more bored in my life!!

So....just dishing up some stuff larr. I went to youth meeting on Saturday, airconds were freezing, but Caleb was the most entertaining, enlightening speaker of the day(or should I say night.). Thank goodness we have him as the vice organizer of a4j. Thank Goooodd!

It was so cool after that. I got another heart attack(I'm just elaborating.) as my crush approaches with an apparently stuffed mouth(icky but in a way, whatever.). Then finally my financial problems are solved because Caleb Mok approached me to sell his textbooks half price, seeing that we share the same stream(in case you were wondering, Bio Science. Not that I like it, but there you go.). Hah, then I arrived home, and my aunt served up mushroom white sauce pasta an hour later. Ah, bliss for that night! To cap it all up, I slept the latest among all, reading (what's V? up to you to guess.).

Sunday came. Funnily, I was the earliest to wake up, and get dressed among my sis onli, cuz no one ever beats the agility of my aunt Viv. Anyways at church, I recharged my inner soul(well, at least it felt like that right??) and BB Tan forgot to bring my pair of scissors again(for the 5th time I guess.), and once again my crush pretended I was invincible. Not that I cared anyway, it was fair enought(I repeat, enought!)that he spoke to me last night.

Then I nearly erupted(no one has really seen my blown up yet, because of my optimistic attitude.). My mom, who blabbed out my crush to Gran, who then target me to blast out a stream of endless advice of not getting married or being single and the virtues of friendships with God's choice. Honestly, I'd rather dump my whole head into the hot curry basin of the mamak stall instead of listening to her. Seriously, I felt suffocated. So now I appreciate allt he husbands whom had endured for so many years(some just quit though) to their wives nagging. Honestly. When I get married(or other women do) someone should add another statement to their vows--I shall not nag my life partner. That way it gurantees alot. That's a mental note for me throughout my life. So, to Dad, Gambateh!!!

Then, todays news that really touched me was that a little 12-year old Indian girl hanged herself for getting bad results at her UPSR. I felt soooo sad that she could just dump her life at such a young age. I'm really glad that Jesus could make it in my life and create such an impact on me---to love myself more and more. And more and more. Also, when I'm feeling depressed, I can't hang myself anyways. Cuz there's nowhere a spot to! Sweatness, I'm just joking.

Oh yeah, I remember Joyce finding out a hidden talent in me(but familiar to family and schoolfriends)--playing piano. Honestly, I'm so touched that she's gonna offer a place to service in youth church---when I failed theory 3 times. Thank God, and I'll be waiting.

Speaking of my just spoken failures, I remember that evening when I came back from Genting. Happy at first, but when my mum told me I'd failed my theory again at Grade 7, I'd nearly wanted to cry. But I'd bit my lip, held back the tears and my emotions was crashing about inside. Was this like a bad breakup? With the suffer, pain, dissapointment, anger, hurt and the tears raging around in my heart? This is unbearable, but for the sake of love, this we must endure.

I got home, went to take a shower. I went to the master bedroom, then stopped. I saw a olive green velvet jersey hanging on a hanger on the racks outside the bathroom. Checked the label, it was from Marks & Spencer. I fingered the peachy velvety cloth, and finally I broke down.

My mom knew that I'd failed my exam. Yet she still bought new clothes for Jamie and me. What was I to deserve this? Asked for the price, it was for over rm100. My mom was really like Jesus. Unconditional love. She might have paid a way smaller price than what Jesus did for us(he died on the cross, you see), but I'd reckon she'd dodge a bullet for me. That thought really made me well up on my eyes. Of all times I treated her badly! Of all times that I've rolled my eyes and mocked her when she nagged at me(not that nagging could be forgiven, but then she's my mom. which mom doesn't do that?). Oh, am I gonna repay her.

With one million ringgit, I'd spend on Mommy the most. You see, I'd planned it out already. I'm gonna buy the hugest closet of everything(shoes, bag, clothes, accessories--but never necklaces, cuz her neck is a tad too short.)and a Mini. For sis, I'd get her a dog. For Dad, a Myvi and some good looking attire for everyday way. Oh and of course I'd get him a gym membership card. Then, we move the hell outta my house. Can you believe people here are like, totally friggin' immoral. They still throw things downstairs! What a shame.

Okay, I'm prety much done. But you'd bet that I'll be back soon.

Inspiration Wave Hit!!!!!

Yeah,right. Inspiration hit,please. But here's what I gotta say(description if my friends as I think of them. And will finally describe...of course but who else mweeeee.....):


Audrey

Silent, yet bubbly. Strong, yet can go weak on the inside. The former of these words speak of her surface, yet the latters fully describe what she is inside. Trust me, I know her. When I first met her, she had those awful-cute-puppydog eyes that would make the world melt. Yet, she was calm, cool, collected. One look into her eyes....I decipher her thoughts through the windows of her soul: I-know-why-you're-here-but-I-don't-think-I-can-trust-you-first-I-gotta-know-you-better kind of look....that's what I saw. One year then passed. I saw her opening up to me, exploding emotions I've never seen before. She could be mature in a minute, but the next moment she could whoop and squeal in joy as happy thoughts come to her. Audrey is a treasure, a real gem of friendship too. Loyal, honest, trustworthy....your secrets can be locked inside her, like a safe. Though she can be quite indecisive too---she still can't make up her mind on her preference of men---she is still the maturative thinking gal that I know.



Megan

If you know what's the whole characteristics of a main Korean drama female character, Megan is that similiar. Innocent, playful, naughty, bubbly, and optimistic. Sure, she sometimes backstabs the people she doesn't like, but that keeps her joyful and energetic all the time. One thing that she makes me laugh is well.....she laughs alot too! She giggles like she's drunk, her eyes crinkle up and lightens up. And boy, is she horny. Not to mention brave and headstrong too. She one big toughie cookie, with all sorts of delights on top of it. And in it. Being the popular all time loved princess, let's give her a round of applause for her humbleness too.



Erina

The moment she prances into a room, her skin shines and glows with self-contentedness, confidence and delirious happiness. She smiles most of the time, and she's always genuinely happy to see or talk to you. Like Megan, she is another "innocent" kind. Well at least, at first sight. Her stance is unique and one of a kind----slightly hunched(because she think she's too tall), hands clasped at the front, her feet pointing at each other and was never straight. The way she criscrossed her feet made you feel like she was a gentle, delicated doll. But she really is one. Kind, sweet, gentle and sincere and loves God(for she's a Christian), Erina is decieving at the same time. Mother of all horny girls, we call her "Macsteamy", ala Grey's Anatomy. About her actions of total inappropriateness and indecenty, I might not want to elaborate on that one.


Angela

Angela is another confident one. Her way of walking shows a tomboy waiting to appear as a lady, as would a caterpillar emerge from its cocoon into a butterfly. Yet her stride can be described as light struts, showing her as a tyrant as being the youngest in the family. Angela is really someone who is a must to have a conversation with you---- she thinks deeply, and sees the world in a different view. Her thoughts and opinions are not general, and she is not afraid to express it out. On the contrary also, she gives helpful advice, and solemnly(and always advises) "it;s really up to you to decide.".


haha. my inspiration tide will come back soon, with more thoughts on my darling friends....and me. God bless my friends................and everyone else.

My First Day of Freedom...and many counting

Basically it means right after pmr, that is. My feelings were like a volcano, waiting to erupt my endless joys of able to feel free, touch the sky, hang out with buds or just anything that I want to. My first day of freedom started at saturday................

of course I wanted to watch a movie. but of course, i wanna watch with dear young(read: she'll be "turning 30" next year.) mama and friggin sis. we watched hairspray that has actors and actresses with the knowledge of their history as much as remembering the encyclopedia. anyways there was one hunk(at least) to look forward in the movie:.....zac efron.

anyways...he is soooooo haaaaawwwwtt. being the main character(tracy)'s enemy's boyfriend....boy ain't he delicious!!! basically i don't eye for the hunks.....but this dude sure caught my eye!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyways hairspray is worth a view, cuz it helps build self confidence in plus size women(that's what my sis says!) and of course, since they brought up the long-time race issue in America---the good black people. thank God at least thie movie is super positive.........and im definitely happy watching it.

apart from going gaga over hairspray, thank God for women's secret!! there was sales there, and we bought 2 precious items there. o yeah did i mention i bought a bikini too at saturday?? betcha i din't. Anyways i thank my daddy up there over and over again....Amen!!!

But for now??? I'm bored. Schools have absolutely nothing to offer, and my supply of dvds are running low. sure i would like to sit down n devour a book, but don't you feel SO bored you just end up flipping to the last page to see who died, who she picked, or was it a happy ending? argh never mind, there's really so much i can do, i guess.

Is it?

Breaking Free

" We're soaring, flying, there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach...."

that song really spoke alot, especially today. 5th of October, the official day when we're freed.

Free from stress, pain, locked up feelings, anxiety, depression.

am i speaking out the minds of other teenagers? some might, cuz they have the exact situation like me. well, those brainiacs doesn't seem to have a problem about studying---haha, how admirable.

well, its a super awesome chunted wonderful great day for me today. me and my bunch of buds hung out at the nearest mamak stall at school, enjoying the good food there (the largest roti tisu available!), celebrating the freedom that's awaiting us.

it really felt weird. i felt rather uncomfortable to NOT study at home, really, because studying is a habitual routine for me. i was like thinking why was i being a lazy bum bum---until i remembered pmr was over. then again, it also felt awkward to touch the keyboard again after what seemed like a century ago (read: 3 weeks).

haha, of course i'm giddy with happiness, there's so much that i can do, will do, and should do, and finally.....Must Do!!!!! alright, i'll vent my feelings elsewhere. while listening to my weirdass sister making funny nasal noises/comments, i think i gotta go. she is REALLY DISTRACTING ME.

My Hols Journal

So, yeah. It's like my first time having an exact journal, really, so correct anything if, well, anythings wrong. xp

Day before Penang trip
Okay, so I wasn't very excited. Well if there's one thing to anticipate about, I'm leaving on a jet plane.......and look forward to yummies?! Well, yeah, if you're taking a domestic flight, I don't think you'll feel high as comparable to overseas(beach: exception. Well, I don't think I'm being very patriotic this time around, am I.)

Penang Trip: 1st Day
Let's see......we (Gran, Aunt Sapphie--Sappho really,Aunt Vivian, Mom, Sis and of course...me!) took the airport taxi and set off. Airport food was restricted to mamak food (will you believe it) cuz it was a domestic flight we're taking (can't stop harping on how sucky is it, can I). Well, for one thing, no one loves departuring, don't they? It's like we're so lucky no one puked on the plane.

First food we tried: Laksa. Then Chicken Rice came next, and a few savoury foods. Quite heavenly I guess, unless Heaven was meant to be HOT!!! Weather was teeeerrriible because the Sun is shining and we were walking all day long. But....it still was worth it...I guess. For the food. I am grateful to not gain any weight. Phew.

Penang Trip: 2nd Day
Here comes the gorgeous part: Pulau Tikus Siam and Lemak Laksa and Indian Mee Goreng!!!!!! I like, totally recommend it:). So delicous, it's not even funny ( one of Aunt Sappho's fave quotes. I totally dig it.). I didn't even fly to heaven, I JET-PROPELLED there. Seriously! And absolutely no guilt at all.....we walked(now walking was abit exaggerating, we took a bus too)all the way, so, no weight gain...but...*sniff* no weight lost:(.

At night, we hung out at the hotel bar and listened to a band playing(sucky man with weird pitch, and 2 girls who, pityingly, always got busy with 2 Korean horny perverts sticking to them---what happened to Korean drama casanovas?), and after gajillions of drinks(seriously! Magaritas, Coronas, red wine, dessert wine, cocktails eg: AK47, Long Island), we were officially DRUNK!!! Even my Gran got swirly, she ended sucking a burnt french fry as a cigarette and a flower in her hair. But we seriously had so much fun...but the guilty part is, I had tidbits for dinner. O.o

Penang Trip:3rd day......Leaving Penang
Well, nothing to say much, there's was nothing interesting( but I finally managed to get my most desired food---Fried oyster!!!) as we got back on the plane. But we managed to end the night with dinner at the Oriental( slow service, but hey, if you're patient, you might be able to enjoy the food as well as me.)

Seriously, my hols were memorable and I'm really happy to share with whoever reading this.^^ Well, I really gotta say this: Just. Love. Malaysia.

geez..what a wonderful world it is

gosh...my promise of updating every saturday has been, like, totally broken. And that promise is so cancelled cuz im going 2 Penang tomorow! and since that my aunt just came back from Hong Kong, she gave us a real treat. We recieved air tickets, just to fly to Penang. Crazy, huh. But that's the how happy my life is, and I'm grateful.

Treats: Really. You wouldnt believe how many treats I got in one week. Just one week, mate. We went on a shopping spree on Monday at One Utama(preferable called 1U, so that'll be easier to pronounce?). We seriously got a HUGE haul of stuff, we got stuff like clothes, clothes, clothes, all fresh from like M&S, Gap and, gosh! Forever 21! My aunt totally liked it and I think it made her felt so, like, 21?? Forever?? haha. Give me a break from being humble, everyone, but hear me brag: 3 tops, and 3 bottoms, totally, like, perfect,baby. Ask me out, and watch me SHOW OFF!!!! *Rofl*

Penang: All people should(translate: must!) go to Penang, one word I could describe it: Delicious. Mmm, seriously, the food, the heat, the beaches(though they're polluted now), the friendliness and the people. I shall capture photos of the yummmy stuff(while i starve in desire before tucking in:) and post it so everyone can devour virtually. See how generous I am??!!

So...I guess my holidays are wonderful and I shall not forget it.

Twist Lick Dunk

I twist into my baptising robe.
I lick my lips in anticipation.

Then before I knew it..... my Pastor dunked me into the baptizing pool!

Wala....I was baptized and officially became a Christian. So proud of it man.
(p.s:God didn't pick that Sunday for mum and Jamie to get baptized cuz it was that time of the month! Shh.... secret.)
After that, great news! I got to sing for CF on Friday. That had been always what I wanted, so I really thanked God. Probably I might get the chance to do the same in church too ^^.

So seriously. Being a Christian is HAAAAWWWTTTT.